Beanie Feldstein Reveals WhichGrey's AnatomyCharacters Were Part of Her 'Gay Awakening'

Mar. 15, 2025

Beanie Feldstein on January 12, 2020 in Santa Monica, California.Photo: Matt Winkelmeyer/Getty

Beanie Feldsteinrevealed to aGrey’s Anatomystar that she was a part of her gay awakening.Feldstein, 31, joinedGrey’s AnatomyalumsJessica CapshawandCamilla Luddingtonon the Monday, Sept. 23 episode of their podcastCall It What It Is, and revealed to Capshaw, 48, that her character of Dr. Arizona Robbins was a part of her “gay awakening.”“Feel like I need to bring into this space, but looking back, definitely, Calzona was my gay awakening,” Feldstein shared, referring to the nickname for the relationship between Arizona and Callie Torres (Sara Ramírez). “I just didn’t see it.“As fans of the hit ABC medical drama may recall, Callie was married to Dr. George O’Malley (T.R. Knight) before coming out as bisexual. Arizona and Callie later got together in season 6 and tied the knot the following season.TheAmerican Crime Story: Impeachmentstar — who married wifeBonnie Chance Robertsin 2023 — continued telling the cohosts that she “was obsessed….on a different level.” Noting, “Looking back, I’m like, oh, there are so many kind of signs. I think a lot…”(L-R) Sara Ramírez and Jessica Capshaw in “Grey’s Anatomy.".Ron Tom/Disney/GETTYAs Feldstein explained how the former fictional couple had a real impact on her, theBooksmartactress discussed her own experience coming out.“It wasn’t that I was, like, keeping something inside that I was not letting out,” she said. “It was like I hadn’t put the pieces that had been clicked in together in my own body.”“And then the second I knew, I came out kind of immediately, once I figured out because I’m incapable of keeping anything inside my brain, body. I’m an extremely external person….,” she added.Beanie Feldstein and Bonnie Chance Roberts on January 04, 2020 in Los Angeles, California. (.Steve Granitz/WireImageShe also remarked how that is “a much more common queer experience than I think people talk about often.” Feldstein added that the hospital drama also “did a great job” depicting a similar journey with Callie Torres’ path. “You think you’re one thing; everyone tells you one thing, and you’re not mad at that thing,” she said. “It’s just something maybe doesn’t feel a 100% right.”“It wasn’t like I was like you know, the men I’ve dated in the past, I have great fondness for,” theLady Birdactress said. “They were good, nice people, and everything was fine, but there was just something missing.“Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories.Grey’s Anatomyseason 21 premieres Sept. 26 at 10 p.m. ET on ABC.

Beanie Feldsteinrevealed to aGrey’s Anatomystar that she was a part of her gay awakening.

Feldstein, 31, joinedGrey’s AnatomyalumsJessica CapshawandCamilla Luddingtonon the Monday, Sept. 23 episode of their podcastCall It What It Is, and revealed to Capshaw, 48, that her character of Dr. Arizona Robbins was a part of her “gay awakening.”

“Feel like I need to bring into this space, but looking back, definitely, Calzona was my gay awakening,” Feldstein shared, referring to the nickname for the relationship between Arizona and Callie Torres (Sara Ramírez). “I just didn’t see it.”

As fans of the hit ABC medical drama may recall, Callie was married to Dr. George O’Malley (T.R. Knight) before coming out as bisexual. Arizona and Callie later got together in season 6 and tied the knot the following season.

TheAmerican Crime Story: Impeachmentstar — who married wifeBonnie Chance Robertsin 2023 — continued telling the cohosts that she “was obsessed….on a different level.” Noting, “Looking back, I’m like, oh, there are so many kind of signs. I think a lot…”

(L-R) Sara Ramírez and Jessica Capshaw in “Grey’s Anatomy.".Ron Tom/Disney/GETTY

Ron Tom/Disney/GETTY

As Feldstein explained how the former fictional couple had a real impact on her, theBooksmartactress discussed her own experience coming out.

“It wasn’t that I was, like, keeping something inside that I was not letting out,” she said. “It was like I hadn’t put the pieces that had been clicked in together in my own body.”

“And then the second I knew, I came out kind of immediately, once I figured out because I’m incapable of keeping anything inside my brain, body. I’m an extremely external person….,” she added.

Beanie Feldstein and Bonnie Chance Roberts on January 04, 2020 in Los Angeles, California. (.Steve Granitz/WireImage

Steve Granitz/WireImage

She also remarked how that is “a much more common queer experience than I think people talk about often.” Feldstein added that the hospital drama also “did a great job” depicting a similar journey with Callie Torres’ path. “You think you’re one thing; everyone tells you one thing, and you’re not mad at that thing,” she said. “It’s just something maybe doesn’t feel a 100% right.”

“It wasn’t like I was like you know, the men I’ve dated in the past, I have great fondness for,” theLady Birdactress said. “They were good, nice people, and everything was fine, but there was just something missing.”

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Grey’s Anatomyseason 21 premieres Sept. 26 at 10 p.m. ET on ABC.

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