Drew Barrymore Held Shame for Her Past as a 'Blackout Drinker': 'I Put Myself in Situations I Shouldn't Have'

Mar. 15, 2025

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Drew Barrymoreis opening up about how the movieBlink Twicehelped her reflect on her past.

The actress hadZoë Kravitzon her daytime talk show Tuesday, Sept. 10, and told Kravitz, who makes her directorial debut withBlink Twice,how the thriller"really affected me personally."

“There’s a lot about substances in the film. I was shocked to realize that part of my journey that I was looking to find, the trauma inside of me and what is it about, a big part of it was I used to be a blackout drinker,” Barrymore, 49, said.

She went on to say that watching the movie “was an extraordinary journey for me to forgive myself, because I’ve put myself in situations I shouldn’t have put myself in.”

“And I felt so much shame about that, and I haven’t had a drink in five years,” said Barrymore.

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Jaid Barrymore and Drew Barrymore during the “Pacific Heights” Los Angeles Premiere.Jim Smeal/Ron Galella Collection/Getty

Jim Smeal/Ron Galella Collection/Getty

Barrymore told Kravitz, 35, ofBlink Twice, “It is not only a film about the things that can happen to us, but it made me think about the things we’ve done to ourselves.”

“Was there any part of you that was aware of that in making it? Because there are so manymessages being brought up here,” she said.

After responding, “Yes, absolutely,” Kravitz added, “The substances were, I think, more of a way to get the characters to the most vulnerable place possible. When you let yourself go and you lose yourself it’s so easy for things to spiral out of control.”

Zoe Kravitz on Aug. 8, 2024.Rodin Eckenroth/Getty

Rodin Eckenroth/Getty

“There’s always that feeling or idea [of], ‘Well you drank it, you got on the plane, you wore the short skirt,’ and it’s just so much more complicated than that,” theBig Little Liesstar explained.

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Kravitz, whogot engaged to Tatum, 44, last year,told PEOPLE in Augustthat watching the man she loves play a bad guy was “awesome."

“He was doing such a good job, and as an actor, I’m like, ‘This is delicious stuff that he’s never gotten a chance to do,' " theBatmanactress added. “And also, he’s doing this part because he’s an ally. He wants to tell this story.”

Blink Twiceis in theaters now.

source: people.com