Golfer Grayson Murray Told His Father He 'Didn't Want to Be Here' 2 Weeks Before His Death by Suicide at Age 30

Mar. 15, 2025

Grayson Murray.Photo:Kevin C. Cox/Getty

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The father of late pro golfer Grayson Murray is opening up about a conversation he had with his son shortly before his tragic death.

Murray’s father Eric told the outlet that “the two men cried” while they sat together in the living room of their Raleigh, N.C., home. Eric then recalled that his son said, “I don’t want to be here anymore.”

The next day,Golf Digestreported, Murray played in the Wells Fargo Championship, which took place from May 6 to May 12 in Charlotte. There, he tied for 10th place. The golf star previously won his second PGA Tour title at the Sony Open in Hawaii in January.

Murray then moved on to the Charles Schwab Challenge, which took place over Memorial Day weekend in Fort Worth, Texas. He completed the first two rounds before withdrawing from the competition on May 24.

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“He didn’t like being on the road,” his sister Erica toldGolf Digestabout Murray’s struggle with temptations to gamble while traveling. “He was a homebody, he got his energy from family and friends. Being stuck in hotel rooms, [away] from people he could trust, did a number on him.”

His father shared that Murray had ups and downs related to his mental health. “Some of the harder times were when things would be going well. You get your hopes up,” Eric said. “Then … [shakes head] … it was always a fight for all of us.”

Murray’s brother Cameron then recalled his final conversation with the golfer, which took place two days before Murray’s death while Cameron was in Aruba. “We talked on Thursday. He said, ‘One more good tournament, and I’ll be down,’ ” Cameron said, referring to Murray’s plans to visit him. “That place is my escape, and I was hoping it would give him the same peace.”

PGA Tour officials confirmed Murray’s death in anofficial statementposted on the organization’s website on May 25. “We were devastated to learn — and are heartbroken to share — that PGA TOUR player Grayson Murray passed away this morning. I am at a loss for words,” PGA Tour Commissioner Jay Monahan said in the statement.

He added, “The PGA TOUR is a family, and when you lose a member of your family, you are never the same. We mourn Grayson and pray for comfort for his loved ones.”

In the middle of the tournament when Murray died, Monahan said he reached out to the late golfer’s loved ones, who gave consent for the event to continue. The commissioner also noted in his statement that grief counselors were on hand at the various venues on the PGA Tour.

source: people.com